Dreaming

of having my own little place!

I am a little girl

at heart.

The past few weeks have been tiring. After today, I realised that I have MUCH to learn and that it's true that wisdom and knowledge, in most parts, can only be bought by time and experience. As much as I want to believe that my enthusiasm can compensate, can it really?

Fortunately, my being green allows me to make mistake. Allows ppl to overlook. Enough about work.

Have had much thoughts lately. Somehow, somewhere, my priorities have gradually evolved.I look into the mirror, and dont really like the reflection I see. My eyes ache in tiredness and is constantly a tad bloodshot. Limp stringy hair that cries for shine and attention hangs pitifully. I dont even recognize the girl in photos of my yesteryears anymore.The sleepless nights of agony. Sigh.

One of my better photos these days.....

Myself and the gang in our younger days...

What I want most now...

1. To be with my LG
2. Have a brand new lovely haircut...
3. Sleep soundly everyday knowing you are near me...that's the secret to youth and beauty right?
4. To wear my pretty new dresses I'd bought for Christmas!!!! I heart River Island!!Thinking of buyin more..hmm... its the season for prezzies right? Prezzies for myself..muaahahah
5. To get my braces removed.
6. Lose weight, get into shape and resume obsession with vanity.Masks! Manicures! Trimmings!Extensions? Exercise!...

7. Buy lovely gifts for my family Im meeting up next weekend!!

8. Counting down the days to Christmas......

Sidetrack a little. So many songs reminds me of us..but i love this one the best..fits perfectly.... !

Really really mad

Lately been feeling like not giving a damn about anything anymore. What with responsibilities and sacrificing for the good of mankind ( or a purpose to be exact). I was told that this is all part and parcel of the learning process. You can always opt to act dumb and stay mum. Or. Step it up and take in as much as you can. Regardless of how much you'll be appreciated.

So what happens when you do more and get slapped in the face. No one really cares the amount of effort you've put inside. The amount of hours you have sacrificed.

Is it worth it? I wonder. I bet most ppl go through this in their careers. Today, I look back and finally understand why ppl choose 9-5 jobs with specific job scopes.

Why people get fed up after years of taking in all this s***. Workload is not a problem. But when I get backstabbed I get really really PISSED.

How much have I neglected myself. Unruly hair, pimple face filled with blemishes, flabbiness and owl like eyes... and for what???????????????

When did I start becoming so bitter and angry......

The only things i look forward to......counting the days to the limited weekends with loved ones/ one....days that i can sleep soundly.......