It is very troubling, this situation I'm in. A handful of people are aware of this hot soup I'm in. Can my actions be justified just by slapping on " All's fair in love and war"? I wonder yet again, I'm positioning myself in yet another sandpit. A friend told me that I'm really weak when it comes this category. Am I? I'm really starting to question my morality.
Yet it's nice to feel this way. It's a change. To be a princess. To see a certainty. To see your dreams within your grasp. I want this to go on forever. Can it?
Let it not be a mirage. Let it not be just a shortlived happiness!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
the Finality of the Decision
sunk in today.
The past few days I was a tad worried. Worried that I wasn't "feeling" enough.Worried that I had become that cold, emotionless lady that I fear I would become.
Today, I discovered that I am human.
I guess I should be happy. Better prospects. Better money. New people. A humongous challenge.
But why is it that I feel such a dull ache. The extreme sadness.
A friend told me that the first time leaving makes it harder. But i guess these people, great friends that we have become are the reason I enjoy going to work each day.
They say time will change a person. I really hope after the two years, I'll still be the same. Just wiser and a lil more weathered.
The past few days I was a tad worried. Worried that I wasn't "feeling" enough.Worried that I had become that cold, emotionless lady that I fear I would become.
Today, I discovered that I am human.
I guess I should be happy. Better prospects. Better money. New people. A humongous challenge.
But why is it that I feel such a dull ache. The extreme sadness.
A friend told me that the first time leaving makes it harder. But i guess these people, great friends that we have become are the reason I enjoy going to work each day.
They say time will change a person. I really hope after the two years, I'll still be the same. Just wiser and a lil more weathered.
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